It’s official; I’m home full time. My intent was to give a four week notice but the powers that be felt paying me out my notice and letting me go was a better idea. Works for me! And so, tomorrow begins a new chapter. Honestly…I am terrified. Because, well, what if? What if I’m really not a good mom and they hate me being home? What if I’m a horrible cook but everyone has been telling me “it’s good” just to be nice? What if I get bored? What if I can’t handle being without adult interaction for one full day? What if I get lazy? What if I don’t have the discipline to write? Worse, what if I’m a horrible writer? What if I turn those “what if’s” into, “If I don’t…”.
If I don’t do this, I will never know the answer to all of those “what if’s”. Because I know me and I know that all of those “what if’s” are lies I tell myself (except maybe my cooking – I have a sneaking suspicion about that one). So I have devised a plan to keep myself and my “what if’s” from sabotaging my goals. Keep it simple. One day at a time; one goal at a time. That’s it. That’s the plan. I don’t know if this will work. But I believe this is God’s plan for me and I believe that I must at least try or I will regret it. I suppose if the keep it simple approach doesn’t work, I can devise a new plan.
So… here we go. Are you ready to walk with me?
Until Next Time…